Journal Entry
**Food and Me**
People keep saying I don’t eat.
I was told I look like a bone by this old man. He tried to make a deal with me that if i eat his soup that he would screw me....not sure what that was about cuz he's married....
My mom said she can see too much of my collarbones and that I “should really eat more.”
Apparently, I’m malnourished.
I just find it funny. Because for the past month, all I’ve been doing is eating.
And not just water and vibes — I’ve been intentionally trying to add more _protein_ to everything. Eggs, chicken, yogurt those nasty lil granola bars that taste like chalk but have 10g of protein. I've tried to put a solid effort in lol.
All because I actually want to gain a bit of weight(just to go to the gym and potentialy loose it all)
And to be honest, I see a difference.
If I could choose where all that weight went, It would be a completly different story.
If I had control over that, _everyone_ would see the difference.
But alas, till that day comes, I guess I’ll just keep eating my oatmeal with added protein in silence.
And if I ever _do_ get a little thick or fluffy or whatever people call it now — I swear, if _anyone_ tells me to go to the gym and “get back in shape,” I will scream.
This is what they wanted, remember?
Y’all manifested this. Let me live in peace with my snack cakes and gains.
Cuz god forbid a girl have a great metabolism and still be slim.
Nah. We must be starving ourselves, obviously.
Also, for the record:
Yes, I eat obviously or id be dead, i just don't tell people i'm hungry cuz then maybe they'll feel obligated to do something about it
And I’m not picky either, unless we’re talking bananas (disgusting), olives (straight-up evil), or mushrooms (maybe, if its thinly sliced on pizza and hidden under cheese).
But beyond that? I’ll eat whatever.
I like food.
Even if no one else can see it, I do.
Now ill go eat a peanut butter sandwich out of spite.