**Journal Entry** Lately, I’ve been watching _60 Days In_, and it’s been hitting me hard. Just seeing what people go through in jail, but also realizing how many people are going through hell outside of jail too. A lot of them aren’t criminals by nature they're just people who’ve been dealt a messed-up hand. Some turn to drugs, some steal, and yeah, those things aren’t okay, but there are _reasons_. People don’t just wake up one day and decide to ruin their lives. There’s always pain behind it. Trauma. Neglect. Survival. And people on the outside are so quick to judge without knowing anything. That’s the part that gets me. We expect people to be perfect when we’ve given them nothing to work with. Kids grow up in broken homes, rough neighborhoods, underfunded schools, and then we expect them to somehow become doctors or engineers? That’s wild. We don’t give them the support they need, and then we blame them when they don’t “succeed.” The system doesn’t try to save everyone most of the time it doesn’t try to save _anyone_. That’s one of the reasons I want to be a pediatric nurse. I really believe it starts with the kids. If we want to make any kind of real change, we have to start there. I know I’m just one person, but I still want to try. Even if it’s just something small. A little kindness, a little care, it can stick with a kid. And sometimes that little bit is what keeps them going. But even saying that… I don’t know. Lately I’ve been feeling really down about everything. About life in general. Because yeah, there are beautiful things in this world sunsets, music, love, random acts of kindness but it just doesn’t feel like enough. Not for me. And I honestly don’t believe it ever will be, not while I’m alive. I don’t know how long I have here. Maybe it’s a day, maybe it’s ten years. But some days it feels like it wouldn’t really make a difference either way. That’s a dark thing to admit, but it’s the truth. Sometimes I sit and wonder why we even stay. Why we keep fighting for things when it always seems like life just rips it apart again and again. I don’t have the answers. All I can do is pray hope that _some_ part of this world heals. I know the world’s been through worse. But at the same time, isn’t it about time something actually changes?