**Journal entry** HATE Hate is a strong word and I don’t enjoy using it I also don’t hate anyone without good reason and even when I do I forgive them or I try and be nice because I want to give everyone grace I forgive even if I can’t forget. I think that’s just something I was forced to be able to do I’ve had a lot of wrong done in my life and I’ve forgave I’ve moved on I’ve accepted it because it’s everyone’s first time living and life is a process that no body can master no matter how hard you try everyday is different. I also think if I ever do something that is out of place or bothers someone that they would come to me and tell me because if you don’t express the little annoyances they fester and produce hatred. I dislike strongly manipulators, narcissistic people, liers, pick me people, and people who love to play the victime and somehow there are people with every single one I don’t understand it and I never will and I don’t see what they get out of talking with out proof or causing unnecessary tension. Peace is something I look for in anything I do in people in places in things because to be at peace isn’t something I’ve gotten a lot of and I try my hardest to be nice to accept everyone because as much  as my instincts are on point and I’m rarely ever wrong (obviously with exceptions) I still give people room to grow and yet most fail every time and people say I’m opinionated and if they think that now god forbid I say everything that I think lmao and maybe my opinions or the way I deliver them come off as rude or whatever but I never say anything if I don’t mean it expecialy when it comes to other people I don’t have a mean word to say about anyone unless I have proof I don’t hate and say fucked up things about people just for the fun of it. I tell people how I feel then they get defensive and start spiraling then I don’t say anything people poke at me to get information. And you don’t have to listen to anything I say I’m not a genius nor am I Jesus but all my intentions are to help and I’d rather be honest then lie about shit just for the sake of your 10mins of happiness and a lifetime or pain when it could be 10mins of pain with a lifetime of happiness. But that’s just me it annoys me when people talk about my character expecialy when theirs is as black as charcoal. We’ve all been through shit in our life’s as kids teens adults and yet we act like others arent aloud to have gone through shit and we criticize them and I’m not gonna act like I’m perfect but I am very self aware and I realize when I do it and I can realize that I don’t know there life I’m still healing but if someone isn’t willing to heal or take notes that people are giving your no longer going to be let off the hook and let roam free without consequences ruin your life all you want but dragging others down with you is manipulative and narcissistic and that is what I hate not people but the bad they bring out negativity is a bitch and positivity and I big hill I’d rather walk up a hill then deal with a bitch my whole life.