__Journal entry__ My return ? So its been a while since ive written anything in minscape, a little bit since ive writtem a journal entry. Where have i been?...I honestly couldn't even tell you. I think I was lost in a dark space in my mind....however true that my mind is a dark place in general as much as i try to lighten it to a silver or light grey at best....anyway this perticular dark space was different felt different mad me think and take a step back and realy look at my current life and situations that ive put myself in or find myself in. And FUCK to say the least. I think i found a lot of clearity but im already such a like self conciouse person that i have clearity about so much im aware of things i can do better and improve boundraise that i need to set but all this clearity and what the fuck do i do, how do i take all this clearity and stick it to my real life put it to action without feeling like im the asswhole for saying how i feel or im being dramatic or overreating and i could do better so why havent i why am i forcing people to do it//why am i being a hypocrite?? Cuz i know how it feels better than anyone else how it feels to be crushed under the weight of all the things you could improve or umder all the things you could be if you werent.....you. I have a lot going on in my brain so i find it difficult to fully articulate how im feeling so i chose to shut up and figure it out myself how to navigate whatever it is i let go of. And its frustrating because when imm unable to get my point across in a manner for everyone to understand