I’d been dead only an hour
when I realized no one was coming.
No light, no tunnel, no hands reaching,
just me,
lying still in a world that never paused.
The clock kept ticking.
The dishes in the sink still waited to be washed.
My phone buzzed with a message
from someone who didn’t know I’d never text back.
I thought maybe I’d feel lighter,
but I was still heavy
heavy with everything I never said,
everything I never became.
Death wasn’t an escape,
just an echo of the life I never really lived.
Maybe I’d been dead longer than an hour.
Maybe I was dying the whole time.