You were never mine.
Not in the way lovers are,
not in the way hands meet hands or
hearts say yes out loud.
You were an almost
a maybe
a song stuck on repeat in a language I never learned.
And damn,
do you know what it’s like
to love someone
like a secret mission?
To root for their smile
from the sidelines,
cheering quietly
while your own heart limps home
from every “maybe someday”?
I was a shadow
in your sunshine.
Loving you from a distance
was the only way I knew how
to keep myself from unraveling
at your absence.
They say unrequited love
is poetic.
But poetry doesn’t ache like this.
It doesn’t watch someone else
get what you never even had the chance to lose.
Still,
if I had the choice,
I’d love you again.
Because even in the ache,
you were worth the ink.
[[2025-04-05]]