I said I’m tired
and everybody nodded
like that’s a normal thing
to be
every
day.
Like dragging your body across the week
is just part of the job description
of being alive.
I said I’m tired
and they said,
_"Same."_
But I didn’t mean sleepy.
I meant _heavy._
Like my bones forgot how to float in water,
like my shadow gained weight,
like joy costs more than I make right now.
I meant I’m tired
of being “resilient.”
Of bouncing back like a rubber band
snapping against the same damn wrist.
Of turning wounds into wisdom
when I never asked to be wise.
I meant I’m tired
of shrinking myself
to make room for people
who never learned how to listen.
Of explaining my sadness
like it owes anybody a backstory.
Of showing up to rooms
where my silence is louder than my words.
Tired
like the kind of lonely
that sits in your mouth
when you say “I’m fine”
and nobody calls you out.
Tired
like peeling yourself out of bed
feels like birthing yourself
every morning
just to do it all again.
I don’t want to be an inspiration.
I don’t want to be a fighter.
I want to _rest._
To be still.
To be held without asking.
To cry without performing it.
To be a person
not the project my parents made of me.
So when I say I’m tired,
please
don’t hand me caffeine.
Don’t tell me to push through.
Don’t ask me what I’ve done for myself lately.
Just sit.
Be quiet.
Let me fall apart
without fixing me.
Because some days,
healing looks like
**nothing.**
And that has to be enough.