Just yesterday,
I sat in this chair
thinking the waves were soft,
thinking I had time
admiring how they carried my thoughts
out of reach,
how they let me pretend
none of this was real.
I told myself:
if I’m still enough,
maybe nothing will break.
If I wait long enough,
maybe they’ll see I stayed.
Maybe that’s enough
to matter.
But people move.
The waves, too,
seem to have washed away
every soft part of me
turned my good into something
twisted, misunderstood.
Maybe Ursula’s under the sea again,
plotting with the voice I gave her
in exchange for a love
that never showed up.
And somehow,
I’m the villain
for staying quiet
while the water rose.
I should’ve learned to swim
before I gave away my voice.
Before I let silence
become proof
that I was fine.
Now it’s too late.
Now I don’t know what hurts more
the drowning,
or knowing
I chose the chair.![[IMG_0584 2.jpg]]