I love being the one.
The one they call,
the one with answers, open arms,
warm words poured into tired hearts.
It makes me feel
like maybe I matter—
not for what I need,
but for what I give.
I like that.
I really do.
But some nights…
some nights I walk,
just me and the hush of the world,
and it’s the only time I feel like I belong to myself.
No expectations.
Just silence, and the rhythm of my own breath.
Most days, that silence feels like peace.
Like safety.
Like a secret I keep just for me.
But on the heavy days,
when the sky presses down
and I lay in the grass
trying to convince myself that I’m okay—
I wonder.
Who would I call
if I let myself need someone?
Who would pick up?
And that’s when it hits—
not loud, not dramatic.
Just soft and slow,
like a sinking I can’t stop.
So I pray without words.
Tears on my cheeks,
whispers in my heart.
Just me and the stars,
and the weight I can’t share.
I’m proud to be their anchor.
But sometimes,
I wish someone would notice
that I’m drowning too.